Its so hard to be miserable than to feel Joy
I always looking at the new day as fresh as the morning sun. I feel so alive that it radiates in every aspect of my life. I'm always looking forward with joy and excitement. i always see things surrounded me with different beautiful colors. there's always sunshine even in my darkness day...there's always happy thoughts to remember. There's adversities in my life but never a day will pass without laughter. People who often see me didnt notice clouds in my eyes...why...even myself was so amazed in times looking at my eyes in the mirror and found none, but indeed there is I can feel it. They cant feel the tons of weight I have inside that sometimes over powers me, but then again in my amazement...though sometimes I wanna give up I dont feel like giving up. no matter I say I'm tired of this life, im perplexed for not feeling like it...I know I should I just cant feel it. I thought I lose all my hopes but deep down inside of my soul...hopes is still there. i'm so stu